that one time i was almost cool
I am coming back to this coffeeshop.
I just spent an afternoon working on a track for a beat tape that I’m putting out in November. It’s called Innamission, and it’s kind of a big deal.
Not that it’s super good or anything, but I’ve never done anything like this before. Half the time, I don’t know what I’m doing, which is kind of a fantastic and terrifying feeling.
The barista mixes my drink,
I mix my drum samples,
– two artists, busy refining their respective crafts.
Half an hour passes, and he walks over to me.
“Hey man, I got a question for you.”
I pull out my earphones.
“Yeah, what’s up?”
“Do you make music?”
“Yes.. *ahem*, yes I do!”
I quickly fix my hair. And my posture.
“Nice, what type of music do you make?”
“So I’m really into hip hop and R&B – I’m making a beat tape right now.”
Whoa. I get to say that.
“Oh nice, man. That’s sick. Can I hear some of it?”
“Err yeah uhm sure! I’m not really done with this track yet so I’m not sure if it sounds good yet… Wanna listen?”
I hand him the headphones quickly, attempting to hide my palms sweaty. Haven’t been this nervous since I don’t know.
I can’t hear what he’s hearing, but enough hours of staring at the same MIDI drum patterns, I know when the beat drops, just by looking at the tiny grids and colored blocks.
And when it does, I catch him nodding silently, at 86 BPM, in the corner of my peripherals.
“This is dope. I can totally hear this on SoundCloud.”
HELL YEAH IT IS, I scream out loud, my voice echoing off the cement walls of the coffeeshop.
“Thanks, man”, I respond timidly, way too quiet for him to hear through the earphones.
We small talk for a few minutes. The whole time, alls I’m thinking is,
plug the beat tape. Just plug it, dude.
But in walks a young and hip-looking, gorgeous white couple and I lose my chance.
“Gimme a minute, gotta take care of these guys.”
That’s okay. He’ll come back, and when he does, I’ll plug my beat tape. Maybe I’ll even plug my SoundCloud, I think to myself, ignoring the fact that there are only two songs on there, neither of which are very impressive.
Only he doesn’t come back. But more customers do come in. More gorgeous, hip, white couples.
His shift ends 20 minutes later, and so does my short-lived moment of almost-coolness.
“Nice talking with you, man. Hope to see you back here some time.”
I pound his fist.
Oh you will, barista friend. You will.